So, Madden's first day of daycare was Monday. I did not even make it out the drive way before I started balling my eyes out. I blame the radio. A song came on that I last heard at natalie and kyle's wedding - which made me miss them. Then it said "feel the touch of a precious child - Madden and "a mother's love - me. So needless to say I was not off to a good start. So, I bring him in, fill out the paperwork and fill them in on his tips and schedules - which takes about an hour. Then get home and walk to mom's. Thank goodness this place has video monitoring system - me and mom watched him for about an hour. Then I went home and watched for another hour. I cant explain it but I just could not move from that computer. Ok, then I put myself together and got to work cleaning house. Put on the country music and went to town - an hour or so into it a song came on "dont blink" which talks about kids growing up to fast and life passing you by - I lost it again. Poor patch did not know what to do!
But after that I was ok - I think I ran out of tears - if that is possible. I finished cleaning and it was 3ish and time to get Madden - YEAH!
So after I got him i went to granny's where momma was and just sat there letting her hold him. I felt like I let him down - like I was a bad mom for abandoning him all day. I can not explain completely but I did not want to be alone with him....we went home and fed him and then back to nana's for dinner. It got better after a while and after he laughed a little.
It has almost been a full week and he has gotton great reports everyday......I guess he is doing better than me with this whole daycare thing - I like to call it "school"
For some reason, doesnt sound so scary. Well, that's all for now - until a new milestone occurs - CHOW
Em
